07.05.11

Dearëst Zoë,

We had a very close call this weekend.  I hung up a shelving unit in your room.  I thought it was stable.  That night, you got out of bed for a moment and in that moment, the shelf came crashing down on your pillow.  Your pillow was crushed.  Your Daddy and I just stared at in horror and were completely grateful it was the pillow and not you.  I truly believe it was a miracle that saved you.  I know people could dismiss it as a coincidence, but I know in my heart, God answered one of my most frequent prayers.  He is watching over you.  As a mama, I can't tell you how relieving that is to know.

There was another miracle in our lives this weekend.  Someone close to us gifted the family with some money. It was totally unexpected and unasked for, but deeply appreciated.  What means the most is that someone trusted us.  They know my background with money and my compulsive spending habits, but they took cash from their pocket, hard-earned money, and gave it to us, no strings attached, no instructions, no demands, nothing.  Even though money was the present, the real gift was the trust they showed.  They trusted that I would do the right thing with that money.  They believed I was capable of it and so I was.  We're using that money to pay my USF application fee.  I cannot so easily waste someone's money as I do my own.  I was astonished and felt very loved and proud that someone took that risk on me.  I have been written off as a bad debt or a bad risk so many times in the past.  It felt so good that someone saw something different, something better in me. 

As you can see, we have much to be grateful for, little one, including the family and friends we have been blessed with. 

All my love,

Mama